Chapter 29 “ Dancing and Dedication”
Hey there!!!! Time is passing so
quickly these days! It’s hard to believe I only have two weeks until summer
vacation! I have so many things planned for little lady this summer. Swimming
lessons, 1st airplane ride, beach vacations, movie dates, etc. We can’t
wait!
I have to tell y’all Dani Marie
loves to dance! She has music flowing through her veins! I guess it may be a
good thing that she didn’t have any chance of inheriting my lack of musical
talent. She loves to dance and sing! Look out world; she may be the next
American Idol. We love to laugh at her dancing. She “throws her hands in the
air, and waves them like she just don’t care” on command. It is so precious.
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. It is
also child dedication at Gaston. This day is one that I longed for, hoped for,
and then hurt for on so many occasions. I said for years that having child
dedication on Mother’s Day almost seemed like salt in an open wound for a
barren woman. I still pray for the people that hurt for so many reasons on this
day, the ones who have lost mothers or babies. I know that God will give them
the strength they need to make it through. I also hope that many people tomorrow
will find hope and healing in Dani Marie’s story. She is our living proof that
God’s plan far surpasses anything we could dream up.
I begged and pleaded with God for
so many years to help our fertility treatments work. I cried out to him to heal
my body. It never occurred to me to simply ask for His will. His will was to
fix not my broken body, but my broken heart. He wanted to send me the most perfect
little girl.
Tomorrow my husband and I will
stand before our church and family. We will dedicate our Dani Marie to the
Lord. We will pledge to give her back to him. I am so humbled at the thought of
this. God handpicked her for us. He sent us the biggest heart in the tiniest of
bodies. As I picked out pictures for the slideshow I looked back at the very
first images of our hero. Her body was beyond tiny. Her ribs were so visible,
tubes were everywhere, her skin was transparent, her lungs unable to function
without machines, but she had those same eyes, the ones that she still has. Even
when her body was tiny and frail her spirit was strong. She is perfect for us.
God knew this. He knew exactly what we needed and He delivered her to us in His
time. I am honored to dedicate her to the Lord. I hope so many things for her.
I hope she always loves laughing. I hope she loves learning. I hope her friends
will feel more like sisters. I hope she finds her prince without having to go through
too many frogs. I hope she knows the joys of motherhood someday. I hope she
always loves dancing.
Dani Marie,
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I love this song.
I hope so many things for my baby girl. I will dedicate her to God in the
morning, because my greatest hope for her is to know His love, his perfect
love. He used her to remind me how perfectly, graciously, and faithfully he
loves his children. More than anything, I hope she has a heart for Jesus.
Happy Mother’s Day to my mother~ and to Dani Marie’s
birth mother. You two ladies have blessed me beyond measure. You two ladies
have made the biggest impact on my life.
I love y’all,
Ashlee