So today has been one of those days, you know the ones where you want to just throw a big fat pity party for yourself. Ever had a day that leaves you questioning everything you do? A day where it feels like hardly anyone is in your corner? A day where everything seems to go wrong?
Well today was that day for me. I'm a teacher and a coach, needless to say I don't make a lot of money. I definitely didn't choose this profession to become rich. If teachers/coaches were paid by the hour, by the time you figure in all the extra planning, practicing, conferencing etc. it would work out to be about 25 cents an hour. Coaching in particular is often a thankless and lonely job. So, as I was saying~this was a particularly trying day. I was getting caught up in the tiny details of what didn't go my way today as I drove home from practice. It was a long, tiring day. I felt defeated and discouraged.
God decided to send me a little perspective.
I walked in at my parents' house, and I was greeted with the most precious smile from a beautiful blue-eyed doll. Today though, she was CRAWLING! Crawling! This may not seem big to y'all, but for us it is huge. We have done exercises for the past few months in order to "strengthen her core" as instructed by occupational therapists who access our preemie's progress. Months of daily exercises, the same routine. We worked on this, her Granna worked on this, but for a while Dani seemed perfectly content just sitting and laughing. But today, February 20, 2013~she crawled.
I cried and I kissed her. The thing is I had been so consumed with the tiny details of the day. Things that seemed so huge and worth worrying over, but suddenly only one thing was on my mind.
God used that moment, to remind me what is really important.
As I loaded her up and drove home, I couldn't help but smile. I thought to myself, what a great day!!!
Granted thirty minutes prior, I was stressed and confused. I allowed myself to be consumed with negative thoughts and minor dilemmas.
But in true Dani (miracle girl) fashion, this little blessing reminded me what is valuable. I thought to myself about all the times that I let the burdens of infertility and loneliness consume me, and how God so faithfully sent me Dani Marie to deliver me from those. I thought about the words, "This too shall pass." I decided that I more than anyone should know how true this phrase is. Sure, maybe if I had never seen God's mighty hand at work I would have a reason to be bogged down by earthly issues and unimportant problems. I spent years longing for a child, begging to have the pain of infertility removed from me. God delivered me from this, through a tiny 2 lb blessing. Should I of all people not know that God is still our Deliverer? In the biggest trials, and also in the smallest trials. I'm so thankful that my heavenly Father is so patient and faithful to gently send a reminder that I have been blessed enough to receive a modern-day miracle. Almost as if God said, " My child don't you remember, this too shall pass?"
I'm so thankful for this wonderful, daily reminder that we serve an Awesome God!!!!
Love y'all!
Kisses and Hugs
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So, so awesome!
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